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Journal for March 2003.
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| 3.31.03 4:12 PM (Monday) FUCK |
2.5 for 3. FUCK! I am angry, and kind of sad, and kind of stressed out. I was waitlisted from Stanford today. My heart was kind of racing as I got the mail, cuz I knew it would be in there. And the envelope felt kind of thick so that was good. But then I read the actual letter: "We have just completed our review of this year's applications to Stanford, and I wrte to offer you a place on our waiting list." :( I am hella disappointed.
If anything, this means more uncertainty for the next two months. I really want to go to Stanford and so I will be on their stupid waiting list. It also means, I guess, more time to choose between two colleges, kinda. If Stanford doesn't have a good admit rate this year (which I'm hoping,) I'll be able to choose.
I'm thinking it's all cuz of my (relatively) lower scores on the SAT's. If I had just bothered to raise those I think I would've been a much more competitive applicant...
In other words, my Berkeley financial aid is kinda sucky. $24000 in loans O_O If I had to pay that much, I'd rather be going to Stanford :(
Maybe I'll go East Coast now. Forget all my ambitions of staying West. I just hope Columbia has really good aid... (hopefully the private schools will have much much better aid...) |
| 3.29.03 4:24 AM (Saturday) Stanford |
I am hella worried about not getting in to Stanford. What bugs me is that it's unclear to me when they send decisions out, unlike everywhere else, which I find out the evening of April 2nd.
I don't really know what rejection feels like yet. Well I was rejected from that stupid Quest scholars thing last year, and that kinda messed with my pride and somewhat deterred me from applying to Stanford. Argh...
It's only Friday night (Saturday morning) and I'm a little anxious. My first choice will be the last decision I receive.
At any rate, I've already thought of the order I'll be looking at everything Wednesday night... regardless of the order the e-mails are sent, etc., this is the order my mind will be psychologically prepared to cope with the best:
1st: University of Pennsylvania
2nd: Yale University
3rd: Harvard University
4th: Princeton University
5th: Columbia Fu Foundation School of Engineering
On top of everything, my sickness is officially full-blown.
Oh yeah yesterday at school was kinda fucked. During 1st we had a hella long and boring lecture; luckily the tedium was interrupted by a bomb scare of some sort, and we stayed out on the field for a good 20 or so minutes. 3rd we had a Holocaust assembly, much like last year's; my cold was keeping me wide awake. I could see how it could've been boring but I was absorbed in our guest speaker's speech concerning all the events that transpired that he could remember. Ezell's Friday, which was packed, and a Poetry lit test in AP. Afterschool the usual Physics study, with Mike only til Jenny becomes free again, but both of us were too tired (and I was sick) for it to really be effective.
And now a more positive closing thought: Shena Ringo's "Shouso Strip" is one of the best jpop CD's I've ever bought! It ranks up there with Kuraki Mai's "delicious way," Ketsumeishi's "Ketsu no Police 2," and Hamasaki Ayumi's "i am..." It's a shame I didn't discover it earlier.
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| 3.27.03 4:19 PM (Thursday) CAL!!!!! |
2 for 2! Man the Berkeley server was down for an extremely long time. I kept reloading, and during reload #1546, I was expecting the "HTTP 1.1/Server too busy" crap but then a different screen loaded:
"Congratulations! You are admitted for Fall 2003. We are pleased to offer you a space in the fall class."
ALRIGHT! Berkeley's my #3 or #4, behind Stanford, Columbia, and *maybe* UW Honors. But yeah... cool!
...alright this high is pretty much over.
At school today we had a usual lab in AP Chem, but an extra boring Physics lab. Afterwards we had our 2nd to last meeting in Key Club as officers. It hasn't hit me yet! It was funny, for some reason we were talking about senior projects, then I was like "Hmm I haven't really turned any forms in yet.." and Christina was like "me too! YAY WE'LL GET TO BE IN KEY CLUB FOR ANOTHER YEAR!" Hahaha.
During Annual is was pretty boring, Gabino and I were suppoed to finish our senior ad but didn't have any pix. Haha. We're taking waay to long on it and it doesn't even look at L33t as others. Jennifer brought Set and we were playing it, it was so fun and funny too.. it's been about a year since I've played. I kept making all these BS sets like "mini-set" and "special-set" and Jennifer was getting kinda POed. Haha. Towards the end of the period I got hungry so I went to Ezell's. The weather was perfect... sunny and not hot at all. I wish it would stay this way for summer. |
| 3.26.03 2:56 AM (Wednesday) Good grades at Central |
Isn't this surprising. I got a 100% on my final paper for Geography, which gave me a 3.9 overall grade (yay!) It was barely a 4.0 by around 0.25% (darn.)--0.24% to be more exact. And I got a 100% on my final project for WEB 120 (yay!) I think that'll give me a 3.9/4.0 for that class overall, hopefully. Now I fully know I'll be a valedictorian :) Not that it mattered too much, it's just that it would've been really stupid if I wasn't one because of Central. At any rate, I'm only taking one class there next quarter, and that's PSY 215, Abnormal Psych. I know the class will be moderately difficult, but I won't let that discourage me.
Nothing too exciting has happened lately. At school we've had semi-officer meetings for Key Club these past two days, which was kinda exciting considering convention is less than two weeks away. |
| 3.23.03 3:37 AM (Sunday) I miss summer :( |
Well at least I can still have sleeping habits like it was summer ^^
I'm up late always now, my sleeping habits are fucked. It's not good... I waste this time I could be using more productively, musing about trivial things. The thought of the night: I miss summer. Only four more days til I find out from Berkeley (yeah Ada got me all worried about this now), and it occurs to me next year might not be so fun. This summer will be the only time I have to relax.
I miss hanging out. I miss having a clique. I should be doing more of that now, but just knowing there are more pressing things to do just makes it harder. Plus the fact that everyone is inaccessible. Plus the uncertainty of not knowing who my friends are. Gah! |
| 3.21.03 3:14 AM (Friday) War |
So the past few days have been quite interesting. Let me recap from Monday...
Monday was nothing special, but it was 2nd to last day @ Central. I tried getting all the Central peeps together for a picture but to no avail... oh well.
Tuesday... wow I can't believe it's only a few days ago yet I forgot what I did entirely. I think I went home and slept and did HW. Yeah...
Wednesday we had this horrible AP Chem test that just ruined my day... it was the worst I've ever scored on a test in that class. It was also kinda sad cuz it was the last day of Central. Afterschool I bused down there, and was absolutely bored for 3 or so hours, then Anna came like 15 minutes til 6. So we took a Dr. Phil Fanclub pic for the yearbook... lol.
Today was just interesting because there was a walkout + protest. It seemed everyone left after lunch, so no one was at 6th. Gabino and I worked on our senior ad a little bit more (makes one wonder how much time we could feasibly spend...). Afterschool I was going to meet Mike for studying, and I took the 3 that went Downtown, then a little past Broadway it crashed into another car that ran a red light o_O So that was really annoying. I finally got to Downtown amid the protest, but it was all good. I met Mike a little after 3 and we basically just studied... not for Physics anymore; he had a final to study for and I did Literature stuff. We studied for about 2 hours then he had to go to Central, I went home.
Thank goodness I have no HW tonight... it's so relaxing for once. |
| 3.14.03 4:49 PM (Friday) PI DAY! |
Today is pi day... like w00t!!
Yesterday we had a meeting in the library during lunch regarding the recent displacement of teachers; ie, many are being laid off. It's not cool; many of our best will be gone. Afterschool I had to go to the Orthodontist, which was somewhat a waste of time because they didn't really do anything to my teeth; they just told me that my next appointment I would finally get them off.
Last night was hell because I had to finish my LA paper and do study questions. But today was pretty relaxed. And we had pi day in math... Ada and I went to the library, where we saw Jen and Belinda, and then David came, and Kim. Long discussion that lasted 3rd period to lunch.
5th period was the most boring LA period I've ever had. I kept dozing off.
Afterschool went to Chinatown to finish buying CD's so I could use all of my card thingie... I feel really stupid, lol.
And that's that... |
| 3.13.03 2:03 AM (Thursday) Geo paper = DONE! |
I actually finished a long time ago, like at 11:30 PM or so--quite early for me!
But let's see... since last time... on Tuesday everything went all dandy. Gabino and I finally took the pix we needed for our senior ad, but it's still not done..
Today.. bombed a Physics test we had on three chapters. We also had an important Key Club meeting with March of Dimes guest speaker. Gabino and I tried working on our senior ad but we didn't have enough pix scanned, so... we couldn't really finish. No biggie though... we'll get proofs for them, so that's all good.
Afterschool I got home, took a short nap, and didn't go to Central. I decided doing my Geography final project was much more important, especially considering that it's worth 35% of my final grade in the class. So I finished that... and had lots of time to spare O_O I actually have lots of HW I should be doing, but due to my procrastinatic nature... I played some FFVII because Eugene's been talking about it a lot lately, and I *finally* beat Ruby Weapon! That's pretty good considering the last time I really got into it was in 7th grade--5 years ago. I guess insight from the later FF games gave me the skill I needed to beat him. But anyways. The rest of the week should be pretty stressful, but not as stressful as having the weight of a Geography final paper on my back.
Things to do before the end of the week: Senior Project forms, AP Lit Essay final draft, AP Gov't Questions + Studying. Oh yeah Chem HW due tomorrow, better get started now. |
| 3.11.03 5:21 AM (Tuesday) I might've survived last night, but... |
Today I was so tired, but what's new...? I started off the day wrong by being like 30 seconds late to Gov't where we had a test that I didn't study for because I was too busy doing stupid study questions and the questions covered a lot of material so I wasn't very thorough in reading the text. I have a feeling I bombed it. The next three periods were a wash, and I fell asleep in Physics as usual...
During lunch I tried taking pix for Gabino and my Annual ad but to no avail. Went to Yasuko's (ew) with Gabino, Aaron, and Peter, who told me I shouldn't complain because I can't drive yet. Uhh... I shouldn't complain?
AP LA and Annual regular work, I left a little early to catch the bus to Central.
Ada had to catch the bus too. So we struck up a conversation and one of the more interesting points we talked about was pride. She's very prideful, but she didn't really acknowledge whether that was a good or a bad thing. I came to the realization that my extremely high pride is one of my ultimate flaws. It's the root of why I don't feel like I belong anywhere right now...
So I got off Downtown, went to Chinatown, bought some CD's because my little card thing expires soon. Then I went to Central and fell asleep until Wendy came, then Anna a little bit after that. I got my yearbook back. Class was usual.
When I got home I found out my CD's had arrived. Finally! Jay Chou's 2nd CD isn't as good as his other ones IMHO.
And yeah. I still really need to do my Geography paper but I dunno if I have any time to squeeze it in right now... tonight is going to be hell. I might need to skip Central tomorrow to finish it. |
| 3.9.03 10:25 PM (Sunday) Another chapter in my life |
Another chapter in my life is over. At least this time there's closure, unlike chapters that have half-closed in the past...
I knew it would happen someday, but I am officially out of the band. It just didn't seem like it would work... for one we listened to way different music. And I couldn't come to practice that often... so that was another factor I guess. Part of that was it just wasn't on the higher end of my priority list, like it was everyone else's. I'm completely cool with it though.
Thanks for the experience, and yeah. I'll never forget the few gigs that we did have :) I'm sure you guys will find a better singer than me. |
| 3.8.03 6:23 PM (Saturday) UW Honors |
Time to recap, as usual. On Thursday I had my final Force and Motion meeting. When I got my payment I thought it was going to be only $50, then I opened the envelope and I looked at the amount. It was $50 for each of the sessions I was there, ie the check was made out for $200. Alright!
When I got home I found out the posters Eric and I had ordered from yesasia.com arrived. The poster tubing was really really hard to open though...
Yesterday nothing too eventful happened. I went straight home afterschool.
Today wasn't terribly eventful, but I did find out I got into UW Honors. Was it really a surprise? I'm not sure... I'm glad they liked my Honors essay though. It was kinda beating around the bush, but I think I pulled it off nicely. In just a little over three weeks I'll find out every where I've been accepted, so I can make my decision as to where I'm going next year. Kinda exciting to think about.
Lately I've been feeling comfortable in terms of academics. I've gotten back into the rhythm of just doing work and not really stressing too much. The good thing is Winter Quarter ends in two weeks for Central, then I just have a video course--Abnormal Psych. But a lot of papers due soon. Here's an academic to-do list:
- AP Gov't Unit 8 Study Questions - due Monday, 3/10
- AP Lit Stylistic Paper - rough draft due Monday, 3/10
- Geography 100 Final Project Paper - due Wednesday, 3/12
Okay so it's not that much, but it's still a lot of writing O_O
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| 3.5.03 10:50 PM (Wednesday) Senior Skip Day: The Aftermath |
Senior Skip Day was yesterday. I skipped; I was sick and I guess that's a valid reason too, but I wonder how plausible it is now. I went to Force and Motion afterschool to test out Physics software, then went to Pacific Place for my Princeton interview.
Today it was a short day. Nothing too much went on.. I found out I got a 7/9 on my AP Gov't test, that surely beats a 10/100. Haha. I heard Ms. Brierley was pretty PO'ed but she didn't show any signs of that today. I bet we'll suffer the consequences later on. Jeffo finally gave me his CD burner. Fell asleep in Physics as usual... hmm... war protest afterschool as usual... Oh yeah and to end the schoolday I went to Jack in the Box on Broadway with Brian, Gabino, and Alex.
Okay then I went home and took a really long nap. I woke up around 5:20, which sucked cuz I missed the bus to be on time to Central. But I caught the 9 at 5:45 and arrived only 15 minutes late, which was pretty good. And Central went on as usual. |
| 3.3.03 5:19 AM (Monday) Key Club website |
This weekend was productive because I worked on the Key Club website, which also happens to be my senior project, and my WEB 120 final project as well (killing three birds with one stone ^_- Not that I condone bird-killing). I've finished three sections so far, and the last three will hopefully be easier (but not--they're the sections that significant amounts of text go into.)
Anyhow, I've also been really sick this weekend, which hasn't been good. And as I procrastinate I wonder about my health and how tired/sick I will feel later on tonight..
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| 3.1.03 10:33 PM (Saturday) Another week is over |
So much stuff happened as usual...
On Wednesday we got out early. It was kinda dumb because we were supposed to have an assembly, but it got cancelled, and then we had an extra long 5th and 6th periods. Afterschool I went home, chilled, then it was time to go to Central. I went, and found out class was cancelled X_x. I had to stay there until my ride came at 8, though.
Thursday was a bit stressful cuz I didn't know what was going down afterschool. I got dressed in a suit after all, anticipating I would go to Inroads career fair at 3:30. We had a stupid AP Chem lab, a Physics lab, distributed beef jerky in Key Club, and did absolutely nothing in Annual. Afterschool I decided to go Downtown, but instead of going to career fair (which I wasn't ready for... didn't research the companies, had no resumes) I went to Physics test group.
Thursday night was, as usual, stressful. Instead of starting on HW early I was talking to Eric about our yesasia.com order, which was supposed to be free shipping but instead wasn't (boooo!) Then I started homework at some crazy hour like 1. AP Gov't questions, which I found out the next morning weren't even due. Actually that's all I had time for.
Yesterday Gov't we had a long lecture. During math we had a really hard test, I think it was the hardest test we've had so far. During lunch I spent the time doing AP Lit HW, and during Lit we spent the longest time speeding through Wuthering Heights and talking about random issues. Afterschool I went HOME! I took a long nap. Fun times.
Today I woke up sick. What's up with me feeling sick on the first of the month... but I just came back from Union Gospel Mission, where I volunteered. Specifically I washed dishes and made sandwiches. Time to do Key Club website now.
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